I am so over my life right now. Being a senior in college is slowly killing me from the inside out. I am taking 6 classes, one of which is the 1st half of my senior capstone project; which means, that most nights I lock myself in my room doing homework. I have a crazy weird schedule, too. I work Monday through Thursday from 8:30 until 1:30, plus I have classes from 5:45-7:00. Thank goodness that I have Fridays off!

Work was pretty cool today; I got to be a variety of activities. It’s interesting to watch the daily happenings in the office. There are some of us who are genuinely happy be there and enjoy the work. Then, there are some people who don’t want to work and don’t want to learn anything new, so they generally don’t do much and play on the computer. I started thinking about it today, because I was really excited and pumped to do things and close tickets. I was thinking about how I feel kind of awkward on the days when I don’t feel well so I take work a little slower. It’s interesting to think about how some days I feel like I am slacking, because I don’t feel like I am doing much, yet I am doing more work that some of the other people. Maybe that’s the difference between people who don’t care about job and me, because I honestly love my job and most of the people that I work with.

Today, I also had my second most boring class, Theory of Computation! We learned the Halting problem, which consisted of the Diagonalization Method and million proofs. I HATE PROOFS!!! On the other hand, I am excited about the fact that I will never have to take another math class after this semester. Over the past four years I have taken Calculus I, Calculus II, Calculus III, Probability, Linear Algebra, Discrete Mathematics, an Theory of Computation; which wouldn’t be so bad, if I didn’t HATE MATH!!! School just needs to be over.

While I was supposed to be paying attention in class, the professor said “Minimal Spanning Trees,” which for some reason inspired me to write a CRAPPY poem. So, here it is:

Minimal Spanning Trees

Take away all reason, and
Bury me alive.
I’m looking deep within,
But I’m coming up empty.

I wanted to see the world, and
Live each moment to the fullest,
But all I am is broken and empty;
Shattered and torn.

They chewed me up and spit me out.
I’m just another lost and lonely little girl,
Fucked over by the big bad world;
My innocence is gone. So,

Take away all reason, and
Bury me alive.
I’m looking deep within,
But I’m coming up empty.

Rip away my soul,
And then look inside.
I harbor a monster within me,
That yearns to break free.

I unleashed the demon.
Now, I’m slowly waiting and anticipating;
When will it all to break down?
Will you feed my new disease?

No idea what happened, that has nothing to do with minimal spanning trees or math at all. This is a good example of why my mind should never be allowed to wander!

01000010 01111001 01100101,
Turquoise

Nerdcore for Life!

Well, it is almost 2am and I am not tired at all, so I have decided to start a blog. Ordinarily this would not be a problem, but I have work at 8:30 in the freaking morning. I’ve decided to try to post at least once a day, because at this point I think it is the only way that I will stay sane.

I have so much on my plate this year; I am graduating early, so I have to do senior capstone as well as regular classes for my major. Capstone is kicking my butt, who in their right mind wants to do a yearlong project that will determine if you will graduate or not. I DON’T. On top of capstone, I am taking 2 higher level math courses, two computer science courses and a liberal studies course.

Well, I wish that I could say more now, but I am actually going to try to go to sleep, I will make a post with more information about me, later!

01000010 01111001 01100101 (Bye),

Turquoise